why

So why do I want to cry - because I think that no matter what I weigh I will still be the fat girl and that is so sad - I am not giving up believe me but I seriously want to cry - 2.2 lb loss this week for a total of 10.6 which means I have lost 5% of my weight - yeah - but really no clue what's wrong with me - maybe I just miss so much of the food that brought me comfort in the past - I think is what I am missing - comfort - I did go to kickboxing tonight and that made me feel GREAT!!!!! my body is so sore but I know its just part of my weight loss journey - I want to go 2 times a week at least - I went to talk to our leader at ww tonight but she needed to give people the overview of the program and I didn't want have them wait on me so I just left with tears in my eyes - my question is that is this supposed to be so draining and emotional??? I feel like the only one going through this - my bff who is on this journey with me says its so easy for her and its such a struggle for me - I just don't know

Heard about a new website that I am going to check out - hungry-girl.com - they have great recipies and it also shows the point value for ww - yeah I hope this makes me feel better -well I now owe steph $40 for my shopping spree :) :) :)

Life is good just going through some emotional stuff - love you my followers!!!!!

struggle

weightloss is a struggle - crazy but I think about food all the time - I am still on track but what I want and what I eat are two completely different things - anyway - I am walking a 5k tomorrow with my daughter and am really hoping that it helps me kick start a walking routine - I need to learn how to jog - yes its true I don't know how to jog - silly but stacia says she will teach me - we will see how that goes - I found an article in one of my weight watchers magazines that teaches you how to go from walking to jogging - I am gonna try it and see how it goes - otherwise its walking fast for me - :)
I am only going to record my ww weight cause the scale for biggest loser seems to be throwing me off - but did I mention I am in 6th place :) :) :)

Biggest Loser

Ok so today was the biggest loser weigh in - I am down to 195.2 - who would have ever thought that number would make me so happy - I owe my daughter another 20 dollars for my clothing fund - woohoo!!!!! Struggling with one main thing - I have to eat at times for work and have no control over what is being served - today perfect example - had a luncheon at the Inn at 835 - and of course all of their food is AWESOME - however, I have no idea how to count it - however, I took very small portions and didn't go back for 2nd's - which is again huge for me cause boy I really really really wanted to!!! Going to start making smoothies in the morning with frozen fruit and ww powder - hopefully this will help me stay full in the morning and not use alot of points!!
food its a necessary evil :) :) :) :)

back on track

Ok so this week has been HELL - and staying on track has been so hard - but I have done very well - offered to have brunch with 3 of my favorite people - I declined - I knew I would order VERY BAD - that is something I am going to have to work on how to socialize and eat out and stay healthy - there are healthy choices at most restaurants I am sure - but are they FUN - mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I think not - well this week I weigh in for the Biggest Loser contest again - i am going to walk 3 times this week for 30 minutes - mon/wed/fri - thats my goal and I am gonna do it :) :) :)


Thank you to everyone who has been so supportive of my loss - I am feeling better at the moment and know I will get through it and not by using food to stuff the feelings down!!

Now that is HUGE!!!!!